2nd : T.R.U.S.T

there's no-one left in the world that i can hold onto , there is really no-one left at all. there is only you…
and if you leave me now, you leave all that we were undone. there is really no-one left, you are the only one
and still the hardest part for you to put your trust in me. i love you more than i can say why won't you just believe?

By : Robert mith

Yep..
mencoba meraih kepercayaan orang lain dan berusaha untuk bisa mempercayai orang lain. Dua hal yang sepertinya semudah membalikan telapak tangan,namun pada kenyataannya sungguh sangat sulit untuk dilakukan. Suatu waktu kita sangat ingin orang yang kita percaya sungguh2 bisa menjaga kepercayaan itu.tanpa merusaknya sedikitpun.namun di saat yang sama, apa kita juga bisa untuk menjadi sosok manusia yang bisa menahan diri untuk tidak membohongi orang lain?karena menurut saya, berbohong juga adalah salah satu tindakan yang sangat merusak nilai dari sebuah kepercayaan yang orang lain berikan.
Saya pernah mengecewakan (pasti) dan juga pernah dikecewakan.sungguh suatu perasaan yang amat sangat tidak ingin mengalaminya kembali..

TRUST…sebuah kata yang hanya terdiri dari 5 huruf…tapi membutuhkan respon yang harus dilakukan oleh lebih dari 5 indera manusia…

1 st : my nightly option

One minute I'll be fine... smiling and having fun, and the next minute I'll be sad,  like another life has begun. I'll slowly drain of happiness and begin to cry. I don't know how I get these thoughts and I have yet to find why I feel so alone although I'm right next to you, like I'm an invisible wall that people only see through. like all the full-fillment from my life is gone,  and I just keep crying...the thoughts go on and on

I don't know what triggers them and I don't know why. But it's something very powerful that's causing this tear to my eye. I've never felt this way before and the hardest part is that I don't know how to make it go away, and that I don't even know how to make it through the next day
So I just lie on this floor, the digital diary as my friend as I grow weaker and debate whether my life should come to an end

I choose to stay and awake in the dawn. I feel so stupid; like a freak. but my life goes on.
I continue to walk the halls, and no one knows
that each night,
my life, is just an option I chose